Thursday, September 22, 2011

Thoughts About Life

I'm a nurse manager at a nursing home.

I was in a meeting a few weeks ago and we were discussing a resident who had stated she was ready to die...

{Side note: I hate death.  I think it's stupid...}

But that's an understandable statement for a 90+ year old woman, right?

Well, it surprised me when the other staff members in the meeting started responding, "Well yeah. I can understand that... I think about how I want to just die all the time!"  Actually, they went all the way around the table with each person echoing the same thought.

And then it got to the point where I was the only one who hadn't said anything.

And I said nothing.  I just sat and thought.

Thought about how sad that was.  Thought about how frustrated I've been with my job lately.  How the things that I work really hard at, and spend countless hours doing -- how they seem so pointless.  How each day blends into the next.  How sometimes I feel like weeks are passing me by and I'm in a type of trance... because there's so much to do and so much to worry about.  And how life can feel so overwhelming and so monotonous sometimes.  It's just the truth.  Sometimes life sucks.

And it's hard to stay positive.

But, that conversation got me thinking...

About how much I love life.  How much I have to be thankful for.  About the times when I feel like my soul could burst because life is such an amazing and beautiful gift.

I ran across this quote the other day.

-- She said she usually cried once a day not because she was sad, but because the world was so beautiful and life was so short.  --Brian Andreas

I feel like that... a lot.

Isn't that the truth, though?  That the times when we feel so sad and overwhelmed are when we are somehow missing out on the beauty in life...

Like being upset with someone you love, or being so busy you can't do that one thing you really love to do {the thing that makes your soul feel full}, or being so distracted by the craziness that you don't take the time to stop and appreciate just how beautiful life really is.

Please, please, please...
Today, stop and smell the roses with me : )
It will make us feel happy, like we should be.

No comments:

Post a Comment